donde esta Lemuria
December 10, 2011
home.
i wanna go
where do you wanna go?
i wanna go
i wanna go
i don’t even know
where do you wanna go?
don’t even know if it exists
where do you wanna go?
anymore.
i don’t know where my home is.
i think its where you land when you’ve been floating face up
long enough
on moon-loved salt water
long enough
to forget this float is habit
long enough
to giggle at the stars again
and then you’re home.
it’s a shore made from shouting ancestors
having spotted our seastar bellies on the water
they run ahead to make welcome food
crooked hands smoothed by sand.
.
.
.
didn’t even know when it was time to stand up again
rest from float laughter
didn’t even realize the tree branches overhead meant
madre tonantzin come to claim us again
didn’t have time to look at each other and see
we’ve been here in each other’s eyes this wombdark time
i never left home.
.
i just fell asleep for a very long time.
.
i don’t remember falling asleep, but i remember some moments before.
.
toothed-jaw strong hunger breath, clenching my belly tight and tender
wolf carried me to the place where an oath was taken and a stone found
under the cedar tree.
my hair fell blue upon the snow-
a prayer for grandmother river bearing our dreams,
warm teeth placed me under cedar trunks, sleep.
i felt blood from the inside and saw a few drops that were not my moon alone,
wolf, bleeding as she bent her head, turned to limp not leap
.
.
.
cuando me desperté,
i see pink tracks dancing in the snow.
wolf
becoming deer
it is no surprise
i put my face to the two-toed truth
bend my mouth into a song-
the next step i remember
.
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+ + + +
+
.
my trail through forests brought me to the sea
a few hundred years of circles later,
and -Sha, always kind to the dying
took me as an apprentice
gave me this dream
…
a clay mound slipping out into spiral
with a pow-wow song filling out nose
open naked hands to receive
herman@s estelar
curled hungry in raindrops
gifts from sky
mixing in earth
we are born-
savagely sweet
darker than heat
and carrying the beat.
